No, I've been really out of touch, too. It's no one's fault - shit happens, life happens, bullshit happens that makes shit in life worse, that's no one's fault and friendship isn't constrained by how much people stay in contact. If it is constrained by that, then it's not a real friendship imo.

I love you, too, and care about you in huge amounts, whether we're in contact or not. I think about you quite a lot, and I think about all of the people on LJ whom are really important to me (dameola, you come under that category, too!) and no amount of lapses in communication will ever change that. ♥